Seize the Day?

For me, it's been more like being seized by the day! Our life has been a whirlwind these past six months. We've sold our home, moved to an apt, then moved to a new house; had a new baby in the midst of all that; Jim was diagnosed with pan-colitis, Elijah is being tested for possible seizures; I'm trying to unpack boxes and setup house while not ignoring the kids; Jim has completed his college courses and has been promoted to Vice President of Safequip (thus increasing work responsibilities); Rebekah is trying to figure out being a younger and older sister; and poor Micah is just along for the ride right now. Sounds like a lot, doesn't it? But, as I look back, the Lord has been so gracious to give us the strength and sanity to handle each situation.

Let me get back to seizing the day. You see, I am by nature a spontaneous intravert. Meaning that I don't usually plan my day much and I need alone time to be able to handle group time--not a good combination right now. Kids need structure and their day needs forethought. Plus, with kids under the age of five, there really is no such thing as alone time for mommy. So, I've been struggling to keep my head above water some days. Most days I wake up when one of the kids wakes me up and drags me out of bed to make breakfast. Not good, I know, but I'm being brutally honest with myself today. And that's how the day starts. Then I unpack boxes and try to clean the house a little while the kids eat and then play for a while. Usually my chores drag long into the afternoon and I discover I've barely stopped to sit down with the kids and do anything. I sit to nurse Micah and that's usually it! Not that I work full force either. My chores are spontaneous too. So, dishes and laundry get done...eventually. I could go on and on but the point is that I realize that we can't live like this anymore. The day and all it holds has been running me over and that has got to change.

This morning Jim's alarm clock rudely woke me at 7:20--not my usual wake up time! I had nursed Micah earlier so he's content for a couple of hours. I was awake and the house was quiet so I took a shower and pondered my day. That's when I realized what a mess things have been. It's amazing what revelations come in the shower! So, rather than put on my grubbies for house cleaning, I actually got dressed-decent enough to go out, and fixed my hair. I started a load of laundry, figured out what we're having for breakfast, and sat down at the computer to get all of these thoughts out of my head and onto paper (well, computer screen). So, I'm feeling better now. I've even had some time to think about what I've been studying about Grace. I'll tell you more about that another day.

Thanks for letting me ramble on and on. No one may ever read this blog, but it sure is good to get these things out! I'm off to tackle the day!